Hiya LookForward1980,
Sorry to hear everything you have been living for is gone.
Sometimes our relationships fall apart for whatever reasons....
When my marriage went pear shaped,
I found having as little free time as possible was a great help.
And keeping my mind occupied as much as possible helped lots.
I took to studying and looking at various ways to earn a living while working from home. This I did in my evenings after the normal 9 to 5 dungeon duty...
Next, I tried to do everything I dreamed/wanted of doing,
Which helped me address the fact that...
"I am the important person in my life, right now..."
So yeah,
Right now...
You are the most important person in your life,
(Unless you have Children, in which case they come first,
And you after them).
Like many of the other members said,
The forums here are great for friendship to begin with,
And if something mutually grows out of the friendship,
Well that a PLUS I guess.
Plus they are great for simply sharing thoughts,
ideas, many of the members often post their poems, art, jokes and much more.
The main thing is not to rush into anything,
Take Baby Steps and progress at your own pace.
Good Luck.