when you feel threatened, scared and in danger of being hurt the cowards way out is to run away and retreat.
The "cowards way out" is allowing all rational thought a backseat or to disappear entirely to purely emotional impetus, and then afterward trying to justify how that was the "right" thing to do and they are a "good" person because of it.
guilty admission here and not proud of it
Nothing that says you have to be proud of everything you do.
Nothing wrong with doing things that you don't particularly take pride in.
Lack of pride doesn't mean evidence of disgrace or something to be condemned.
Being a "good" person doesn't mean that everything you do has to be labeled as "good" or even worked on to make sure you do a "good" thing instead of whatever.
Take pride in now knowing how you will react in certain situations, next step is acceptance.
one has to do anything to survive
It's just a natural defense mechanism.
No different than a drowning person ending up drowning their rescuer in their panic.
A "normal" person simply will do anything to survive.
There's a difference between "I have to do it" because it's expected, like due to social training, and "I have to do it," because you are being pushed by your own biology.
"I have to pee in the bushes" is different than "I have to pee right now."
Saying "one has to do anything to survive" doesn't really offer the distinction, which is important, IMO.
glad to know i am normal too
