They had a terrorist related incident in UK sometime in the week. Many years ago in my youth I had been involved in various contraversial groups as part of my search for my own identity. But over the years I drifted away from such circuits and sought more of my own inner quests to find my self. I had all but forgotten those worlds.

But when the incident struck, they posted a police van opposite my residence. That day when I went out I didn't think anything of it and I wasn't yet aware of what had transpired in the UK. Only on my return home and viewing the news I heard what had happened. Then later I put the pieces together, as far as security and surveillance is concerned I'm still on some kind of watch list.

I had all but forgotten about such things until reminded of what world parts of the system still identifies me with. It seems certain roads mark you and forever brand you and alter the course and outcome of you life.

I had very mixed feelings and thoughts all that night, and I just felt pushed out, but I just couldn't think, where could I go, I have no place else where I could be, I don't know anywhere else, people who call themselves my family didn't give me any other option. So if your under surveilance in the place where your born, where do you go, what do you do? What would you do?

Its a very odd sets of thoughts, feelings and emotions to have to process.

best of luck to you

we do tend as humans to sum each other up by the worst choices and deeds, instead of the best,,,,we can be unforgiving, or just scared

and sometimes they manifest in the same way,,,

Stuff like that doesn't seem to happen much in the UK these days. I think that if it had happened on my block, I would feel the same. Hugs to you.