I'm probably going to end up in a group home anyway because I'm too retarded to do anything also I have seen a doctor but I don't know if I want to see another one because when I do see one some bull **** always happens to where I can never see them again and the one I was seeing recently is like a father to me also every friend I make is either retarded and are job less losers living off the government playing Pokemon all day or ******** that ignore me as time goes by or people that use me for my money
Based on how you write, you don't seem "retarded" to me. Your writing is very clear. The only thing wrong with it is punctuation.
Therefore, I don't see a lack of intelligence. What I see more is a lack of self-confidence. That could be caused by any number of reasons, including some form of disability.
From what you've said, I think it's safe to say you have a learning disability of some kind. But not all learning disabilities are equal. Maybe you were judged for being a special needs class, but that does not necessarily mean your disability is anywhere near as severe as others you have known. From what you have shared, I can deduce that you already recognize this which is why you feel you have not been judged fairly.
Two of my neighbors have Autism. They live by themselves in their own apartments. But they are not fully functional socially. They put forth a good effort though, and I don't mind having them as neighbors. In fact, I drive one of them to various places he needs to go. We even talk about doing things together, like eating at a restaurant or going bowling.
I had another friend who had Autism, and he's a graduate of Yale University.
I use them as examples, not a diagnosis.
I have known another person with a Traumatic Brain Injury. He is functional and self-supporting. Yet he also qualifies for disability.
I have known people with schizophrenia who also were functional and self-supporting.
My brother was diagnosed with ADHD at age 40. He has had a successful career, plus a wife and 2 sons.
In the field, there is a saying: "You are not your disability."
In other words, if you identify yourself solely by your disability rather than your other attributes, then you alone are responsible for limiting what you can accomplish. It is your mindset, not your disability, that ends up limiting you.
You may not be able to change your disability, but you CAN change your mindset.
Me? I have an anxiety disorder. I have a depressive disorder which has caused numerous episodes that I can recall going back to age 5. I likely have a third undiagnosed disorder. Among the disorders considered by psychiatrists have been Borderline Personality Disorder, ADHD, and possibly mild Autism.
I was treated for anxiety and depression. I no longer receive medication nor therapy. I have been through 3 Intensive Outpatient Programs plus individual therapy. The biggest hurdle for me was to stop defining myself by "
what is wrong with me".
It's okay if you don't want to tell us your disability. That's your decision, and we can respect that. I, for one, am not going to judge you based on your disability or your friends (
I don't even know them!).
In the end, if you want help or support from the Mingle2 community, then we need to fully understand your personal situation. Otherwise, most of the advice we offer won't be good nor appropriate.
