You try to wish away your feelings, as the night parts from your hair...
the summer melts down you move all around, you can feel it in the air,
deep night is the dream when we all close our eyes...
talk to desperate lovers filled with so much lies
is there someone someone that you cannot look past
look into their eyes this time comes to fast know that deep down I've dreamed of only you-
you are my everything from the night shining through.
When you hear a whisper
Do you feel a world apart
When you're lost to the stiffness
Does it tear your soul apart
I have moved mountains and bridges to make the pathway clear for you
I have given everything just to be one with you
You must now realize I'm not your only man
I'm the one you can depend on the only one that can also be your friend
I've given my everything from a wish in the night
Let me o dear angel are you with me tonight
Lay down a whisper
Lean it to my ear
Take away my dreams
Take away my fears
Lay down somewhere in the summer you cannot mend
Know I'm still with you from now until the end...

Dearest angel
Why do angels fall and comets soar
When I think of our love I want you to remember eternity
that's all I've got to give to you
You took me in when I could no longer mend my own wounds
You gave me life sheltered me made me the man I've become
I may have saved you from the darkness
But you saved me from myself
In every dream I have shed tears of ragged rivers
Drowning out the world the way I have felt about you
You are my every part of my soul
My general reflection in a mirror only I can stand to look at only you though
I deserve you I know but I'm the luckiest sob on the planet
That you make my dreams matter
Keep me alive
And all in all
Have become my greatest friend
From then until the end

If anything live for a smile
A stranger can make you warm when you're full of fear of who he might become
One day I may actually matter to you
And then all my heart will be devoted unto you
Give me a thousand gardens
And I shmall tend them tediuously till they reflect the beauty of your soul
No treasure map can reveal what the gods have foretold of our union
I hear a silent calling and dust clouds my eyes
You make me so sad I could never find such a beautiful soul
And the clasp of our own doings
Is eachothers greatest secrets

Thank you for sharing it's very beautiful full of love and passion. I can't wait to read more.

I'll try to fill your request :P

Nobody knows where you been
You've been here there everywhere
In the middle of a night
Dancing with a stranger
Who holds you
When all is lost and found once again
You close your eyes and dream
Hoping one day people will be people
And they'll take your breath away once again
Time goes by
People laugh and cry all the same
Places turn into reasons for living
No one knows your name
But for those that matter
For those close at heart
You're only an inch away
No matter how near or far apart
That's why people are just people
No matter who they are
People can live on this planet
And not care when you're falling apart
When you start to wonder
When the road is not quite clear
Think of all the times you've been left behind
And who stayed with you to drag you further on down the road you are upon
Knowing they made you clear
When you think nothing else matters... and this world has gone insane
Deep down there is someone missing you within the deepest heart and brain
No matter, how distant they never left your side
That's why people are just people
And the ones always with you are inside...

Hearts of glass like ember rose
Where your heart goes, no one knows
Like a child so lost in the dark
Only matters when you wake
Like an orphan holds their will
Dreams of expression mood will kill
What you seek of lands apart
The tides drift into the ocean tear out your heart
For too long we've held our pride
Dreamed of tomorrow lost inside
No conclusion only pain
I am lost without you going insane
The deepest heart of mine could last
Filled with nothing but solid glass
My heart filled with an ocean drown in fear
Cause tomorrow is never near
The thing I longed for deep inside
Dream of tomorrow lost in your eyes
But you never came to
This could not be real...
The bitter shallow is all too real...
That no matter how much you drown
You're as empty as a king without a crown
Placed with gold upon your head
They only care about when you are dead...
The lands apart will crash and burn in the sky
Filled with hope but you die inside...
And all is lost apart from what you become
You are anything you want to be...
As long as you live another day in pain...
Your final dreams will come to you if you believe in yourself...

If you are afraid
Are you alive
If you are alive
Are you afraid
If you can change your fear
Are you really living
If you are living
Can you really stop being afraid of not knowing what's ahead
If you can see into the future
Does it change the past
If your past changes your future
Are you still afraid to make that future come true?

This one I obviously ripped off my fb status wall :P


Man, it ain't easy... I'm sick of over turned women being so easily bent over... the peasants the true victims of life's little victories, kings lead armies to pursue their own agendas while broken soldiers treat scars and are left broken on chairs... it's the same fate with mercy cruel men doing evil deeds to justify what they believe... I don't want the same for me not this vile filled church filled with blasphemy preaching about a prophet who lived a life of poverty while their pockets are lined with gold? I want what no other man seems to want and gets anyway, a never ending love dog faced cowards who use what they have to get what they want and throw her aside like a bone from a feast... We are still the same mind one body one soul we just want a little bit more to see inside to which we came from... a blessing a mere servant praising god while I've had problems with him he is my only friend in this world controlled by the media out of fear? You can get pregnant at 16 and make a million dollars a year off being as such? Why not? How come other people haven't found an easier way to make a buck? I want what you want empty eyes placed only on you where lilacs blossom and orchards grow in our garden the kids at the mercy of overturned statues now lined up to replace little foothills in our lives out of justice some out of mercy to satisfy some blasphemous king who raped you of your will to live and as just said so continues to do so even as other moguls go to prison for the same consequences? It all showers out and bathes you anew as if what you've been searching for my entire life was right before me this whole time? This other half of my soul is just that an other half of who I am today. Other lives have formed me to fit lives of greed lives of power lives of freedom even but never one to be just longing for love? Why are we born so freedom torn and yet think we have the will to patch up our wings and soar the skies the planet is so limited and all the world belongs to one kind's eventual power? Every single place is on the map and is owned by some eventual tribe of people living life and carrying on their own traditions. I think it's a common sight new days new beginnings open hearts and open minds following this right to not use anyone to get what we want... I have hurt others too, i'm just as guilty. But do I not grieve do I not concern that I have been used and used for my own pleasures? Or am I simply wishing another man's dreams for a noble woman while I am a rat faced bastard myself a true cheesy snake hobbling down a meal so I can be just that fat off greed devided by peril of my own shame and gouge myself on a flock of damsels that portray the night so I can enterouge my own needs above anyone's own? I guess it is just that... Time tells the true tale... Twin cities twin towers come crashing down and at the gates of time it is finally revealed why we are who we are. Lost children holding God's hands as if he has carried us our entire lives...

I have no words just beautiful

Hun I'm sure you hear this all the time and are quite sick of it tbh but you have an absolutely gorgeous face you make sure your bf treats you with all the dignity you deserve ;)

Thank you

This is an exert from Final Dream something within me is wanting to share this thinking maybe it really changes some heads how much I have grown as a person an individual and someone who just wants more out of life...

A skinny curly haired fisherman approached him.
"Excuse me, mister. Would you like to buy some fish?"

"What in the darkness do I need some stinking fish for, you half-wit?"

The man ran off in a daze that someone insulted him.
Rictor felt bad. He didn't need fish, but he didn't have to be so rude. Maybe he hadn't changed that much after all. He would need to find this man and console him. It was too late the man had vanished. Left with no other options he decided to forget it for now and focus on his goals hand. He was to begin a new life and that had changed. He wouldn’t have cared that he hurt the man before. Now was different. He cared that he had hurt his fellow man and begged Ithena for forgiveness. He also prayed that the man would not take it too hard and recover. This was the most beautiful thing he had ever done in his current mind. He had learned a lot tonight. He would tell everyone he met how much he had changed.

He walked out of the port gazing at the night sky. Tomorrow would bring the promise of a new day in his new life. He would follow the rising of the sun till he reached his next goal. Either home or whatever he was sought out to do in his life would be his target.
The sun came up as promised and left Rictor at the gates of his home. He entered his home expressionless. Perhaps his long journey exposed had revealed a thickening layer of famishing from his lips. He didn't need much, just a drink of water. His family was there along with princess Dia. Dia had come to console the family and to comfort herself. He was their son and he was Dia's friend. His loss would be a tragedy for them to bare.

Rictor walked in as nothing had happened. Just walked in said hi and then got a drink of water.
"So, is this all we get is a hello? No hugs? No, I've escaped death? Not even a usual Rictor gesture like what's up?" Dia was furious. Rictor had shown no compassion to be alive and seemed hardly aware he was even alive.

Rictor then spoke.
"What are you complaining about Dia? I am alive after all!"
Rictor paused. It seemed he was losing his perspective on his new life.

"Look, I'm sorry. I truly am glad to be back with you all." Rictor although apologetic was nowhere near pathological aware who he was.

"Stop right there!" Dia pointed a finger at Rictor.

Rictor was baffled.
"What's happened to the old Ric?" Dia was sobbing afraid she had lost her best friend to this delusional that stood before her though once the same man.
"What do you mean? I thought people would like who I have become?"
"It's not who you are though. I want the Rictor I grew up with. Not someone who thinks they have an idea of how to live right. Not someone who thinks they live better than anybody else! The old Rictor would never have such selfish morals..." Dia's words trailed off in Rictor's brain maybe just maybe she was making sense, but he was quite sure.
"I don't get you, people! I started a new life to be good to people! Damn, I even cared for those I had hurt in the past!"

Tyrel butted in clasping his son by the shoulders.
"And what has this new life brought you, son? Has it told you every answer? You seem to have forgotten who you even were.

Rictor we loved you for who you were not what you tried to become." Anehti said gracing Rictor's cheek softly with her hand.
Rictor's delusion was about to fade.
"What about the needy people of this world? Can't anyone help them?" Rictor was confused on who to be at this moment.
"By the gods what has happened to you? Have you truly lost your way? If you have lost it don't forget it this time! You always said a man must learn to stand on his own if he is to make an impact on the world." Dia said drying her tears, remembering the strength Rictor once was.

Rictor's delusion was reduced to nothing. He began to cry.
"My god, what has happened to me Have I been in a trance this whole time?"

"By the gods, we have him almost!"

Dia then reached across and slapped him across the face.
"What the hell did you do that for!" Rictor said holding his bruised cheek.

"No, I'm sorry you smacked me? It's my fault the world is messed up?"

"Hell no, you harlot! That hurt like hell!"

Dia then reached for Rictor and hugged him. Her old friend was back!

"Oh, by the good gods above I actually thought I could change the world for the better?" Rictor openly questioned himself smacking himself on the forehead.
"It's ok son, everyone thinks they can do their part for this world, but you almost lost everything you believe in. Thus, you lost yourself. A tragic circumstance." Tyrel consoled Rictor.

"I blame that witch at the monastery. She made me think I could help the world." Rictor's words were bitter and sarcastic.
"No, I doubt Rhiannon would be a witch to put a hex on you," Anehti assured Rictor calming him down with ease.
"How do you know her?"
"Rictor, don't you see me leave the house every day to pray at the cathedral to our goddess Ithena? Surely you would think I would know everyone who works so diligently for the goddess of life."

"Well, I've learned my lesson for the day. Be yourself and don't let troubles bother you."

"Um... Thanks, Ric, but you don't need to think you know how to live." Dia bluntly stated to him drawing a smile on her face.

"Sure. You want an escort home?"
"I would love one kind, sir."

No matter how hard I try
No matter how little I care
There's never been a girl to stick beside me
I can try to move the mountains to make her pass
I can carry her over a puddle so she doesn't get her feet wet
Or I can simply try not to give a care
And she's never there
Should I break down every brick and build a castle for myself
Live in my own obscurities as a person in love with only myself
I truly appreciate beauty but I want someone with a soul
Someone so beautiful they scare the world at how magnificent they are inside and out
That her heart shines like a star on the brightest day
And our love cannot be measured by time or distance just the single comet
Of one soul that found eachother in a crazy world

I have a pinched nerve in my hand and it's hard to type i'll try to see a doctor about it soon but it's hard to type or do anything when half my hand is numb... :(

Love kindness and being respectful unto others is what should be taught in schools all the basic instructions seem to fail most people anyway... You could end racism you could teach people to help out to pitch in their part you could stop wars if we each respected our boundaries. kings have lead armies to take what isn't theirs, because at first their nation was attacked and in defense they became worse than those that had struck them. I myself have found points in my life of extreme anger that is worse than those that gave it unto me... In what I thought was an act of defense I have turned into a raging bull. you will find if everyone was to have basic morals these laws and conditions would not exist...

My Queen, does your heart belong caged in glass
A vast star doesn't need caged
It belongs out in the open free from all worries and burdens
Draped in love to be admired so near to the heart that his voice echoes for eternity
Always haunting your soul as if by caged night and merely frightened he takes your hand and lets you know his feelings are with you always
Do you simply do what you say and feel neglected to tell them what you yearn for
That most men shelter under a cloak of fear while putting up a brave front
But shatter like glass if pushed back even the slightest bit
Their fear shall set you free to be who you need to be
From birth we are who we are we change our outlook while remaining who we've been
You are a rose a delicate flower yet has it's thorns that prick if not handled right
You may scare others but you do not scare me
I'll be your friend till the end even if a special one takes your hand
A queen owns everything she owns yet needs someone to not be so lonely against the night sky
A shooting star crashing unto earth to be free to love again...

Love doesn't just happen cause you give up or give in rather it happens when it happens
you can live a life of pride and self worth and not find love
You can truly not care deep down you still do it's not going to happen
When the angels are truly feeling you blessed they'll send cupid's arrow to prick you
And someone you may have never expected comes into your life as if by fate
You never stop dreaming you never stop hoping
These tears are heard in heaven and make your dreams come true

So sick with worry
A scammer calls for attention
I talk to them
They bore the living hell out of me promising me this that
And all of a sudden in the middle of the night
A plea for help emerges
I ponder to take action
Thinking it's just an alarm a ruse
I told the scammer I know what they're up to prior
This call for help resonates within me
Not truly thinking or knowing what to do within myself
I send in a crime tip with every detail depicting every indication of this call for help came from
Tell the police to just hack my phone if they have to do so
I wait in response like the yearly tree that blooms
Did I save someone's life on this dreary night
Meeting someone's doom
I might've saved a life
I think all of us make those calls
We're not heroes
We're simply stating the facts
And hoping our truth makes that person free
From captivity....

I dream of tomorrow
And reflect upon yesterday
The thought moves down
You stir all around
It's like dancing in the wind
Deep is night of a dream
Close our eyes drift away
Love is like angels in call
Making you the man you are today
You can needy and greedy tell the world
You just don't care
Somewhere deep in your heart
She whispers i'm right here
Love is the chemical element
Simply close our eyes and fall to sleep
Somewhere in the pit of your soul
Is lying your feelings underneath
You can say a lot to a person
Just by saying I'm right here
You can listen to the sound of her voice
It doesn't make her clear
You can stay focused on a subject
While your dreams wish away
And dream of peace
Somewhere is the heart that you care
Knowing she's underneath
The moon can say a lot to a person
While we're all standing under it wishing away
Sometimes you both stare at it wonderingly
The day that you meet
Just is not today...