Lol, I'm glad you're enjoying it. Just remember to take it easy, haha. Maybe put the extra energy into something creative, like painting? That way you don't end up bed ridden with pain from over doing it.
I don't have that solid commitment and resolve yet to stop again. In the past, that's what it took. A no reservations kind of resolve. But there is a part of me that's tired of smoking and there's always been a part of me that doesn't like to smoke, so I imagine there will come a day again when I stop once and for all. Right now though, the part of me that likes to smoke is overruling the other part, haha.
I've been thinking about channeling my energy into another direction too. Like you say, something creative. Painting, maybe writing, and maybe even a nice card reading as that will make me go inwards and slow me down. And lord knows it's even different now to use my intuition?
As for quitting... part of me didn't want to either. Mostly the health thing that made me want to quit. But I didn't -and still don't- have this rock solid conviction 'I'm going to do this!!'
Really kind of weird as I do find nothing much can get me off the quitting path nonetheless. It's like a different kind of resolve than I've ever had before? Not so clear or intense, more like a gentler undercurrent, but bloody powerful regardless.
Not sure how to describe this as it's really new for me.
Maybe this is the best way for me as I remember when I quit when I was around 32 I felt similar. I was just fed up with it and didn't care about quitting at all. I just did, hihi.
Maybe if I do get all worked up and intense it's not going to work when I want something?
Hmmm... now there's food for thought!! Wowza... I'm gonna write that down.
Hmmm, that is food for thought. Thinking back to when I quit before, it just fell into place. I had gone back and forth for a while in considering it, but the more I considered it, the more I smoked. Then one day I just decided today is the day and I was done. First time was for 12 years, the second only for a few months and this last time for a year. So I got the stopping part down pat. The tricky part is not starting again. Remembering how much energy I had/have. Remembering how alive every cell in my body felt.
Oh, and spiritually... Holy cow, much more in tuned and clear. Maybe that's part of why I start again, it hindered my gifts? Until recently, and perhaps even still, I wasn't ready to embrace that part of me fully yet.
I see that undercurrent in you as the Universe helping you to embrace your path more fully. To do the light work we came here to do requires us to be a clear channel, kind of hard to do that fully when we're filling our bodies with a bunch of toxins. It's possible to some extent, obviously, but just think of the possibilities when we aren't counteracting the light that flows through us. :)