Everytime people thinks you can't do better they know not what you have to face every morning you wake up
The first question you might want to ask yourself is why what others think is so important to how you live your own life?
how can you challenge life when you have nothing
Who told you you have to challenge life?
Life is plumb full of mundane moments. Challenges come and go on their own, no need to go looking for them. If you seek contentment in all things, happiness rises and falls naturally, joy tastes sweeter.
you are just expected to make it in life but no one thinks of giving you a standing hand.
There you go again, trying to live up to someone else's expectations, as if it actually matters in the long run.
You should try to realize there is nobody on this planet better at being you than you. You are the only 'authority' on you, you will ever need.
Use your life wisdom to make better decisions which effect your future according to the future you want.
The thing about depression is the fact it is a monster you feed. Stop feeding it. If you can't, seek someone trained to help you figure out how to stop feeding it. However, for any treatment like that, you have to be completely honest with yourself first. Start removing the delusions which get in the way, start small with the easy ones and work your way up to the harder stuff.
Delusions can make depression worse than it could be. Honest reflection and patience will go a long way towards reclaiming control of your life.
Suicidal Depression:
Been there - done that.
Refuse to do it again!