I've been sexually active since I was 13 years old. when I was 17, I had my first serious girlfriend. we stayed together for almost 9 years and had 2 children together. we were happy and in love. I thought...

she made a pretty big name for herself on social media and caught the attention of a few celebrities even. alternative punk metal bands were her highlights. she was given free VIP meet and greet tickets and an after party ticket after a rock concert one night. I drove her to the concert and let her have her fun, it made me happy that she was getting to meet such high profile people. well she ended up not coming back to our hotel room and stayed gone not answering her phone all night until early morning. when she walked into our hotel room, she was very drunk and had hickeys and goth rockstar dark black and purple lipstick smeared all over her neck face and chest. I questioned her about what she did for the last 71/2 hours and she couldn't give me a straight answer. well when she fell asleep from being so drunk, of course I go through her phone. and there were pictures and videos of her having sex with 3 different band members of the band she had a meet and greet with. and it turned out it was planned for weeks since they chatted on Instagram beforehand. well it devastated me and I had to leave the relationship. I haven5 felt the same about almost anything since that morning. that was 2020. I have just been alone and depressed and emotionally numb. I quit talking to my friends and family. I barely worked. and I've had absolutely zero connection with another human since then.

my point is, I went from being a borderline nymphomaniac to not having sex with anyone for 3 years. haven't really tried.

but things have changed for me recently and I'm not so shut down and I'm ready to meet someone new who I can have a connection with.

I've tried dating apps, old girlfriends, girls with slutty pictures on social media, everywhere. it's one of the hardest things I've tried to do, to have a mini fling type relationship with someone. I ne3d advice on how and where to meet single women that understand how stressful and pressurizing it is to approach a woman for even just friendship. its probably just my own insecurities for that feeling, but every where else I've tried I put myself out there, choose my best photos and try to be respectful and honest in my background history, and no woman will even look at me.

how can I find and meet and talk to girls in this day and age because clearly times have changed since I was back chasing girls.

help me out here people. appreciate any thoughts or comments

Go on man