when you feel threatened, scared and in danger of being hurt the cowards way out is to run away and retreat... guilty admission here and not proud of it but one has to do anything to survive. life has to go on.

No one deserves to feel threatened, scared or in danger, because we live in a civilised society. If you are having to flee from feeling those things, you need to inform the authorities in my opinion, if only for your future protection. I sincerely hope you are safe now.

Howdy, how are you doing

thank you so much for your concern. this fear is more of emotional ...something ive already been through in my life and sadly getting used to. I know i am a good person and that someday somehow things will get better for me. you guys here in the forums have been very nice to me keeping my confidence up and for that i am truly grateful

Pleased to hear you are not in any physical danger of being hurt. Trying to stay positive after a failed relationship is not easy, it takes time to recover and to heal, just try and keep life simple for awhile is my advice, things will get better.

when you feel threatened, scared and in danger of being hurt the cowards way out is to run away and retreat... guilty admission here and not proud of it but one has to do anything to survive. life has to go on.

Well, maybe a first step can be to not see yourself as a coward? That will only make you feel worse.
Everyone is afraid to get hurt (again), doesn't make us cowards.
Focus on the things that do work out, that you do do well, so you start to see yourself in a different light. No need to emphasize and enlarge the things that aren't working out, that'll only drag you down and keep you in that low vibration. Not what you want!
So start focusing on things that you do do or are. For instance, I'm a loving person! Or, if there's resistance in that because you feel being a loving person gets you hurt, you go more general --> I am a good person.
Then think things that feel good to go with that. And steer clear from the subject "men" and "relationships" because that'll get you off in the wrong direction again.

So say "I am a good person", then maybe "I like roses", I like fun. I like having fun with my gal pals. I love fun! I like dancing. I love the way my body moves when I dance. It feels so good to move to the music, to let it flow through me!

ANd so on and so forth. But only say stuff that makes you increasingly feel good.
THat's called doing a focus wheel. A technique by Abraham Hicks. If you find it difficult on your own, you can find examples of it on YouTube on love, health etc. Then you can just follow his lead. (Abraham is channeled by Esther, so you will see/hear a woman, not a man)

When threatened it will trigger one or more automatic responses such as fight, flight, freeze or figure it out.

None of which are worth labelling as cowardly if they help you survive.

Bashing yourself up when you get into figure it out mode is not a very good protection

Knowing yourself and growing yourself is not about loosing yourself it is more about transforming yourself which is an inevitable effect of growth and the alternative to growth is not an attractive proposition.

i definitely do not deserve that kind of treatment

Nothing wrong with living to fight another day

when you feel threatened, scared and in danger of being hurt the cowards way out is to run away and retreat.

guilty admission here and not proud of it

one has to do anything to survive