I don't believe in Fate, that my life is somehow predetermined or mapped out and cannot be changed. I am reasonably happy where I am in life, made mistakes in the past like most people, and I am now fully educated by life's lessons, self taught. Would I turn back time, no, even though the roads I took were maybe not always the best ones, but they were the ones I thought were best at the time. I am content with where I am in life, could have been worse. I have lost friends that sadly never made it that far in their life, never reached retirement, and you count your blessings.
I totally get what you're saying Dut.. life is what we make it.. and agree in many ways.. I just sometimes wonder what life cud've been if I had taken a different path, made a different decision, listened to those wiser than I.. too late now tho huh
my dad used to tell me that I suffered more than others because I was stronger and could take the load where others cud not.. I've come thru, worse for wear

but still.. I have managed to survive and come to appreciate the simpler, little lifes pleasures so much more.. I count my blessings daily..